Referral Bonanza!!!

Wow they had 5 referrals today!!!! WoooHoooo, I'm getting closer and closer to my baby girl. This is just the news I needed. I've been battling the flu since Christmas and still haven't quite turned the corner.

Our Christmas Eve party was a success so to speak. All of hubby's family came, ate and were full. Lucky for me none of my collectibles were broken this year. Just a hole knocked in the wall by crazed, unrulely rugrats playing on my rocking chair. Moms were sitting in the same room of course but did nothing to stop the destruction. I didn't notice the hole until everyone was gone. Lord, please give me the strength to be a good Mom. Please don't let me sit idly by while my child destroys others property. This will be the last year for our Christmas Eve party for awhile. It's just not fun for me anymore. It's a hell of a lot of work and I have to constantly patrol my house to ensure it's not burnt down. So next year it will be Mommy, Daddy, Gracie and Big Momma, God willing.

That's all for now folks. Hopefully, I'll be back soon with some GOOD NEWS!!!

Chocolate Christmas

WoooHooo the Christmas season is upon us! Anyone who knows me knows this is my FAVORITE time of year. The decorations are up and it's time to enjoy. God willing, next year we'll have a little one running about or at least crawling. I can't wait to see my baby girl all done up in her holiday finery.

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Sooooo the referrals are trickling in slower than a paraplegic turtle on qualoods. It's looking like I won't get my Gracie for Christmas after all. Well hubby says that will give us time to pay off some extra bills before her arrival. Hmmm I guess that's a plus. In reality though it's just giving me more time to obsess and buy more stuff for her room like the adorable teddy pictured. I feel so grouchy and out of control lately. Perhaps it has something to do with the fact I have absolutely no control over our fate or Gracie's. I am really trying to live by "let go and let God" but at times, most times, I fail miserably. What to do, what to do. I've got to get a grip. My favorite time of year is quickly approaching and at this point I'm only getting minimal joy from that.

Pretty is ?

So of course I spend a major part of my day wondering & dreaming about what my baby girl will look like. Will she be cafe au lait or a deep espresso with cinnamon accents. Will she have the huge glorious ethiopian eyes. I have looked at so many Ethiopian babies and for the most part they are extraodinarily beautiful. Is it shallow to want my Gracie to be easy on the eyes? Hubby's family is full of beautiful babies, all of them are of fair countenance. I just can't help but wonder if my sugar baby will elicit the same ooohs and aaahs that they do. We of course want her to be healthy, that is most important. But healthy and cute as a button would be good too. I dreamed of her last night or I dreamed of my idea of her. She was young, maybe 3-4 months old, fat, healthy with a gummy slobbery smile. In the dream I felt such happiness, it was so real. My, my, my I know that she will be perfect in our eyes. In the end that's all that really matters.

P.S. A special shout out to my girl Kitt who has to listen to these mindless ramblings on a daily basis but still cared enough to buy me this exquisite print for Gracie's room. I preciate ya homey!

Well the letters finally arrived! I think they turned out wonderful. So that's it, the nursery is finished. What to do now? Hubby and I were so focused on getting the nursery ready that I didn't stop and wonder what it would feel like to see it complete but empty. The referrals are trickling in, but someone 6 places in front of me received a referral for a baby girl the oher day. Just goes to show that He is in control. Ms. Gracie will make her way to us when it's time. Hubby and I are still discussing possibly traveling to bring her home. Outside of the fact that it's a scary trip, the cost are mindblowing. So we'll see.

More Nursery Pics

The nursery is pretty much done. I was waiting to post final pics after I received the letters that were to go over her bed. However, I'm getting the run around from the artist so we'll probably do something different over her crib. My hubby framed out the window but he had to take down my window treatment to do it. We put it back up but it doesn't look as neat as it did before, we'll take it back down and redo it tomorrow. Overall, I'm very happy with it. It feels warm and special when I walk into it and that's what I was hoping for. Now all we need is our sweet Gracie. One of my forum buddies is going to get her princess next week. Good luck Theresa & happy travels.

Baby Crissy

When I was around 6 or 7, I wanted a Baby Crissy doll more than anything. My big sister got one for me but on her way to Ft. Worth to give it to me, she had a carwreck. She was not seriously hurt but the doll was destroyed. I was surfing Ebay and came across this gem with only 3 mins. left in the auction. I bid, I won and I must say she's just as spectacular as I remember. We lost my sister to breast cancer in January. This doll brings up good memories of my big sis that I hope to one day share with Gracie.
Speaking of my sweet baby, referrals started back up Thursday but only 3 have come in so far. I must admit, I've been disappointed. Over the last few days the forum has been hot with a bunch of nonsensical ramblings about the ethics of our agency. Baseless rumors from bored women who already have their little delights home. Honestly, I wish they would all just SHUT UP! I've decided that I'm only going to check the forum twice daily and then only to scan for referral news. I won't ingest anymore of their garbage. I'm already on edge. I just want my baby girl in my arms as soon as possible. I'm betting on a December referral but hey an early Christmas present would be perfect.