Because I still have no word on my Gracie!!! Actually I'm in shock. I really believed we would have heard by now. We are going into our 8 month on the official waiting list and to my knowledge no one has ever waited this long for an infant girl at our particular agency. I could be wrong. I spoke to my program specialist in January and she said she really didn't see it going to much past 7 months. Well I guess she would benefit from Lasik bless her heart, because we are still sitting here with bupkus. We're number 1 on the list for an infant girl but I find no joy in that. We could sit at the top of the list for God knows how long. I realize that God has Gracie all picked out for me. The human part of me is just so weary of all this waiting and the unkown. One of the waiting moms is considering a referral of an infant and the baby must have some medical problems. My heart goes out to her. That must be sooo hard. I pray everything turns out well for her family and the baby. This adoption has been the hardest thing I've ever attempted in my life. Hubby and I had talked about maybe trying again for a boy but I don't think I could stand up to this ordeal again. A coworker and his wife adopted a newborn baby girl domestically. She's 10 weeks old now and he brought her to work for a visit. Oh she was just so sweet. I held her and just felt warm and fuzzy inside. However, I must admit I also felt heartbreak because I wonder if it's ever gonna really happen for me. Everyone please keep us in your prayers.
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