Friday, December 28, 2007
Our Christmas Eve party was a success so to speak. All of hubby's family came, ate and were full. Lucky for me none of my collectibles were broken this year. Just a hole knocked in the wall by crazed, unrulely rugrats playing on my rocking chair. Moms were sitting in the same room of course but did nothing to stop the destruction. I didn't notice the hole until everyone was gone. Lord, please give me the strength to be a good Mom. Please don't let me sit idly by while my child destroys others property. This will be the last year for our Christmas Eve party for awhile. It's just not fun for me anymore. It's a hell of a lot of work and I have to constantly patrol my house to ensure it's not burnt down. So next year it will be Mommy, Daddy, Gracie and Big Momma, God willing.
That's all for now folks. Hopefully, I'll be back soon with some GOOD NEWS!!!
Sunday, November 25, 2007
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Thursday, October 11, 2007
Sooooo the referrals are trickling in slower than a paraplegic turtle on qualoods. It's looking like I won't get my Gracie for Christmas after all. Well hubby says that will give us time to pay off some extra bills before her arrival. Hmmm I guess that's a plus. In reality though it's just giving me more time to obsess and buy more stuff for her room like the adorable teddy pictured. I feel so grouchy and out of control lately. Perhaps it has something to do with the fact I have absolutely no control over our fate or Gracie's. I am really trying to live by "let go and let God" but at times, most times, I fail miserably. What to do, what to do. I've got to get a grip. My favorite time of year is quickly approaching and at this point I'm only getting minimal joy from that.
Monday, September 17, 2007
So of course I spend a major part of my day wondering & dreaming about what my baby girl will look like. Will she be cafe au lait or a deep espresso with cinnamon accents. Will she have the huge glorious ethiopian eyes. I have looked at so many Ethiopian babies and for the most part they are extraodinarily beautiful. Is it shallow to want my Gracie to be easy on the eyes? Hubby's family is full of beautiful babies, all of them are of fair countenance. I just can't help but wonder if my sugar baby will elicit the same ooohs and aaahs that they do. We of course want her to be healthy, that is most important. But healthy and cute as a button would be good too. I dreamed of her last night or I dreamed of my idea of her. She was young, maybe 3-4 months old, fat, healthy with a gummy slobbery smile. In the dream I felt such happiness, it was so real. My, my, my I know that she will be perfect in our eyes. In the end that's all that really matters.
P.S. A special shout out to my girl Kitt who has to listen to these mindless ramblings on a daily basis but still cared enough to buy me this exquisite print for Gracie's room. I preciate ya homey!
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Well the letters finally arrived! I think they turned out wonderful. So that's it, the nursery is finished. What to do now? Hubby and I were so focused on getting the nursery ready that I didn't stop and wonder what it would feel like to see it complete but empty. The referrals are trickling in, but someone 6 places in front of me received a referral for a baby girl the oher day. Just goes to show that He is in control. Ms. Gracie will make her way to us when it's time. Hubby and I are still discussing possibly traveling to bring her home. Outside of the fact that it's a scary trip, the cost are mindblowing. So we'll see.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
The nursery is pretty much done. I was waiting to post final pics after I received the letters that were to go over her bed. However, I'm getting the run around from the artist so we'll probably do something different over her crib. My hubby framed out the window but he had to take down my window treatment to do it. We put it back up but it doesn't look as neat as it did before, we'll take it back down and redo it tomorrow. Overall, I'm very happy with it. It feels warm and special when I walk into it and that's what I was hoping for. Now all we need is our sweet Gracie. One of my forum buddies is going to get her princess next week. Good luck Theresa & happy travels.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
When I was around 6 or 7, I wanted a Baby Crissy doll more than anything. My big sister got one for me but on her way to Ft. Worth to give it to me, she had a carwreck. She was not seriously hurt but the doll was destroyed. I was surfing Ebay and came across this gem with only 3 mins. left in the auction. I bid, I won and I must say she's just as spectacular as I remember. We lost my sister to breast cancer in January. This doll brings up good memories of my big sis that I hope to one day share with Gracie.
Speaking of my sweet baby, referrals started back up Thursday but only 3 have come in so far. I must admit, I've been disappointed. Over the last few days the forum has been hot with a bunch of nonsensical ramblings about the ethics of our agency. Baseless rumors from bored women who already have their little delights home. Honestly, I wish they would all just SHUT UP! I've decided that I'm only going to check the forum twice daily and then only to scan for referral news. I won't ingest anymore of their garbage. I'm already on edge. I just want my baby girl in my arms as soon as possible. I'm betting on a December referral but hey an early Christmas present would be perfect.
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Well the nursery decorations have begun in earnest. Hubby and I are in full swing. The nursery has been painted & hubby finally finished the crown moulding a job not for the faint or heart or those short on patience. I'd secretly hoped that our referral would come sooner than later but it seems that the rumor of an August start up was just that. Everyone seems to think they will start back the first week in September, we'll see. The nursery is keeping us busy though and it's really neat to see Hubby so into it. He'll probably paint the bookshelf over the long weekend. We're going back & forth on what color to paint it. I think cream with pink & lavender accents. Hubby says it should be all pink or all lavender. I don't know, I don't want it to look too cartoonish. What do you think?
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
I know, I know I just couldn't help myself. That's the cutest onesie I've ever seen! Well the clock is ticking. Lots of excitement on the forum. Many of the families are getting travel dates and will have their sweet babies home soon. Referrals start back up in 2 weeks so hopefully it will move quickly. Hubby and I are kicking up our efforts in the nursery. We picked out a beautiful mint green paint and I bought a lavendar crib set. We will start rearranging furniture this weekend and hopefully buy flooring next week. There was much discussion about which room to use for Gracie's nursery. Two of my BFF came last weekend and in the midst of gossip & giggles, I decided on what is now our computer room. They thought the back room would be better but I couldn't bear to be too far away from my munchkin. Wow this is really starting to become real. There are still times when I say to myself is this really going to happen? But I know that what God has for us is for us and I believe that he has a special baby girl out there just for us.
Monday, July 23, 2007
Today after our work out my girlfriend and I were talking with our personal trainer. He and his wife have a 7 month old and I was asking him whether or not she slept in a bassinet while she was in their bedroom. He stated that she slept in the bed with them because she was breast fed. I stated that I was worried about that because I wouldn't want to roll over on Gracie. Do you know what this moron said to me?! He said "not to be funny or anything, but when you grow a baby in your body for 9 months then you are more aware of her and you won't roll over on her" WHATTTTTTT???? Are you freakin kidding me? What statistic did you get that from. I shot him an evil look and said "well that's just an ignorant statement, there are so many myths around adoption and that's just another one." My friend and I then continued talking and she was saying of course you wouldn't do that. Anywhoo, after I got home I told DH and he said I was making too much out of it and that I was just overly sensitive. Maybe, my personal trainer is usually a nice guy and probably just didn't realize what he was saying. However, he's made unfavorable little comments about our adoption before that I just let slide.
What's wrong with people? This will be my baby. I already love her so much, it's impossible that I could feel any more love because I gave birth to her. I feel so sad now I could just cry. Maybe I am being too emotional
I spoke with my personal trainer regarding his ugly comments. He apologized before I even could say my planned speech. He said it was an ignorant statement and that he definately didn't mean to hurt my feelings. I believed him. So all is well once again, I'm not losing any weight but hey he's my personal trainer not Jesus.
Friday, July 20, 2007
Monday, July 16, 2007
I found the perfect set for Gracie's room. It's just what I'd imagined. Elegant, sweet and fit for a Princess. I just LUV it. Hubby is having a fit over the cost but actually it's quite competitive with other cribs I priced and didn't like nearly as much. I think I'll paint the nursery walls a soft green and accent everything with pink. I love those cute little pink ballerina frogs. Hopefully I'll be able to find some. I tell you I'm soooo excited. I don't know how you can love and miss someone so much that you never even seen but my heart is just so full for this baby girl.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
Hawaii was beyond beautiful. It was truely paradise. We flew to Honolulu and then took a cruise to Kauai, Hilo, Kona, Maui and back to Honolulu. If you want to see a lot of Hawaii this is definately the way to do it. However, the service on Norwegian Cruise Line left a LOT to be desired. Nevertheless, the payoff was visiting several of the glorious Hawaiian islands. We did a lot of excursions but I think my favorite was the Road to Hana in Maui. The scenary on that trip was truely magical. Waterfalls, lush landscapes, tropical flowers, black sand beaches. incredible! We will definately return one day when Gracie's old enough to appreciate it.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Now Hawaii was beyond awesome. Everything you hear or read about is true. It's like paradise on earth. I think my favorite was the Road to Hana which we did on Maui. The sites, waterfalls, tropical foliage, black sand beaches just too much. I will try to post a few pics later.
Friday, June 8, 2007
In other breaking news, we leave for Hawaii in less than 12 hours and my hair is a HOT MESS! I don't know what the heck I'm going to do with it. Oh well, no one in Hawaii knows me. Aloha!
Thursday, June 7, 2007
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Well believe it or not we never received any word on our homestudy. Someone from the agency contacted me via email last Friday. They assured me they would have a definitive answer over the weekend or Monday the latest. It's Thurs. night, I never heard anything. I emailed the agency Monday evening and I received no response. Hubby and I were talking last night and he said we have so much already. We're madly in love with each other, love the Lord and we're financially secure. Maybe that's all we get, maybe we don't have the right to ask for more. I don't know. What I do know is that I am so tired of crying about this, so tired of feeling sad. We are considering other agencies but this has been so traumatic for us it's hard to continue the quest. I realize that nothing in life is easy and because Gracie would be our greatest gift perhaps it should be difficult. Prayers please.
Monday, May 7, 2007
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
Thursday, April 26, 2007
I'm also attempting to diet so I can't self medicate with chocolate. Such a cruel, cruel world!!!
Monday, April 23, 2007
Monday, April 16, 2007
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Friday, April 13, 2007
Well today I called our agency because we still haven't heard anything regarding our homestudy approval. I was getting very anxious. Turns out they were waiting for 1 document from our sw that I told her to send on Monday. She said THEY told her she could send it later. Come on folks, we've got to do better than this. We already have a several months long wait AFTER all of the paperwork is completed, I don't need unneccesary speed bumps now. She faxed it over and hopefully the approval will be given in the next few days. Then on to the dossier.
In other news. Check out my blog header. Cute huh?! My friend Kena made it pretty for me. I just love it. Shout out to Kena, Thanks Lady!
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Thank God, they've fired that horse's behind, Don Imus!!!! I feel so good that for once this type of racist hatred won't be tolerated. A big thank you to CBS, MSNBC, & the advertisers that pulled their ads. I've just been beside myself ever since this story broke. As you all can see, I myself look like the young ladies he so viciously verbally attacked (with a few extra years on me of course) I felt personally offended as I'm sure many AA women and women in general for that matter. When my Gracie comes, I'm going to teach her to have an inner strength and beauty that can't be sullied by such ignorance. Also, I might get her some boxing lessons in case the inner strength doesn't work! (wink)
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Monday, April 9, 2007
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Saturday, April 7, 2007
At this point our homestudy is complete and we our waiting for approval with our agency, CHSFS. The homestudy was fairly painless although I felt our sw failed to show me as warm and fuzzy as I really am. I suggested a few changes and she made them but I'm still don't belive it's an accurate depiction. Well hopefully she know's what she's doing and all will be ok.
The next step is our dossier, after that's completed and approved we are officially on the waiting list.