Pretty is ?

So of course I spend a major part of my day wondering & dreaming about what my baby girl will look like. Will she be cafe au lait or a deep espresso with cinnamon accents. Will she have the huge glorious ethiopian eyes. I have looked at so many Ethiopian babies and for the most part they are extraodinarily beautiful. Is it shallow to want my Gracie to be easy on the eyes? Hubby's family is full of beautiful babies, all of them are of fair countenance. I just can't help but wonder if my sugar baby will elicit the same ooohs and aaahs that they do. We of course want her to be healthy, that is most important. But healthy and cute as a button would be good too. I dreamed of her last night or I dreamed of my idea of her. She was young, maybe 3-4 months old, fat, healthy with a gummy slobbery smile. In the dream I felt such happiness, it was so real. My, my, my I know that she will be perfect in our eyes. In the end that's all that really matters.

P.S. A special shout out to my girl Kitt who has to listen to these mindless ramblings on a daily basis but still cared enough to buy me this exquisite print for Gracie's room. I preciate ya homey!

Well the letters finally arrived! I think they turned out wonderful. So that's it, the nursery is finished. What to do now? Hubby and I were so focused on getting the nursery ready that I didn't stop and wonder what it would feel like to see it complete but empty. The referrals are trickling in, but someone 6 places in front of me received a referral for a baby girl the oher day. Just goes to show that He is in control. Ms. Gracie will make her way to us when it's time. Hubby and I are still discussing possibly traveling to bring her home. Outside of the fact that it's a scary trip, the cost are mindblowing. So we'll see.

More Nursery Pics

The nursery is pretty much done. I was waiting to post final pics after I received the letters that were to go over her bed. However, I'm getting the run around from the artist so we'll probably do something different over her crib. My hubby framed out the window but he had to take down my window treatment to do it. We put it back up but it doesn't look as neat as it did before, we'll take it back down and redo it tomorrow. Overall, I'm very happy with it. It feels warm and special when I walk into it and that's what I was hoping for. Now all we need is our sweet Gracie. One of my forum buddies is going to get her princess next week. Good luck Theresa & happy travels.

Baby Crissy

When I was around 6 or 7, I wanted a Baby Crissy doll more than anything. My big sister got one for me but on her way to Ft. Worth to give it to me, she had a carwreck. She was not seriously hurt but the doll was destroyed. I was surfing Ebay and came across this gem with only 3 mins. left in the auction. I bid, I won and I must say she's just as spectacular as I remember. We lost my sister to breast cancer in January. This doll brings up good memories of my big sis that I hope to one day share with Gracie.
Speaking of my sweet baby, referrals started back up Thursday but only 3 have come in so far. I must admit, I've been disappointed. Over the last few days the forum has been hot with a bunch of nonsensical ramblings about the ethics of our agency. Baseless rumors from bored women who already have their little delights home. Honestly, I wish they would all just SHUT UP! I've decided that I'm only going to check the forum twice daily and then only to scan for referral news. I won't ingest anymore of their garbage. I'm already on edge. I just want my baby girl in my arms as soon as possible. I'm betting on a December referral but hey an early Christmas present would be perfect.

Nursery

Well the nursery decorations have begun in earnest. Hubby and I are in full swing. The nursery has been painted & hubby finally finished the crown moulding a job not for the faint or heart or those short on patience. I'd secretly hoped that our referral would come sooner than later but it seems that the rumor of an August start up was just that. Everyone seems to think they will start back the first week in September, we'll see. The nursery is keeping us busy though and it's really neat to see Hubby so into it. He'll probably paint the bookshelf over the long weekend. We're going back & forth on what color to paint it. I think cream with pink & lavender accents. Hubby says it should be all pink or all lavender. I don't know, I don't want it to look too cartoonish. What do you think?

Lil Diva

I know, I know I just couldn't help myself. That's the cutest onesie I've ever seen! Well the clock is ticking. Lots of excitement on the forum. Many of the families are getting travel dates and will have their sweet babies home soon. Referrals start back up in 2 weeks so hopefully it will move quickly. Hubby and I are kicking up our efforts in the nursery. We picked out a beautiful mint green paint and I bought a lavendar crib set. We will start rearranging furniture this weekend and hopefully buy flooring next week. There was much discussion about which room to use for Gracie's nursery. Two of my BFF came last weekend and in the midst of gossip & giggles, I decided on what is now our computer room. They thought the back room would be better but I couldn't bear to be too far away from my munchkin. Wow this is really starting to become real. There are still times when I say to myself is this really going to happen? But I know that what God has for us is for us and I believe that he has a special baby girl out there just for us.

Piggy Behavior

Today after our work out my girlfriend and I were talking with our personal trainer. He and his wife have a 7 month old and I was asking him whether or not she slept in a bassinet while she was in their bedroom. He stated that she slept in the bed with them because she was breast fed. I stated that I was worried about that because I wouldn't want to roll over on Gracie. Do you know what this moron said to me?! He said "not to be funny or anything, but when you grow a baby in your body for 9 months then you are more aware of her and you won't roll over on her" WHATTTTTTT???? Are you freakin kidding me? What statistic did you get that from. I shot him an evil look and said "well that's just an ignorant statement, there are so many myths around adoption and that's just another one." My friend and I then continued talking and she was saying of course you wouldn't do that. Anywhoo, after I got home I told DH and he said I was making too much out of it and that I was just overly sensitive. Maybe, my personal trainer is usually a nice guy and probably just didn't realize what he was saying. However, he's made unfavorable little comments about our adoption before that I just let slide.
What's wrong with people? This will be my baby. I already love her so much, it's impossible that I could feel any more love because I gave birth to her. I feel so sad now I could just cry. Maybe I am being too emotional
UPDATE!!!!
I spoke with my personal trainer regarding his ugly comments. He apologized before I even could say my planned speech. He said it was an ignorant statement and that he definately didn't mean to hurt my feelings. I believed him. So all is well once again, I'm not losing any weight but hey he's my personal trainer not Jesus.

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